-Bodies

I've just realized how boring I am.
Every day is just like the other. Wake up too late, take too long getting ready, get stuck in traffic, get to school around 7:56, take a drink at the waterfountain, do school, say a few funny comments here and there, do my job, go home, spend too long doing unimportant things (like homework), then go to sleep and dream about wearing a pink jumpsuit at my Aunt's funeral.
Where's life going? What's it all about anymore? Am I even living? I think I'm just surviving. Just getting through the day, following the safest routine I know.
How many of my friends like ice in their drink? How many think it waters it down? What's your favorite colored shoelace? I don't know. I never bothered to know. The only thing I've bothered to know is that I like lots of ice in my drinks and my favorite shoelace is white.

I think I've just become so focused on surviving my own life that I've become disinterested in living in somebody else's. I think this is important.

Wait... Gotta eat.

Num Num Num...

I think if people really started taking an interest in each other, in the world outside their own ten-foot radius of comfort, well, the world will be a better place. And not just on the outside. The inside world, too. The part that really matters. People's hearts will be a little more loveable. People's minds would be more open. And people's stomachs would be a little less demanding.

We can't just love somebody to get something out of them. This is called Mercinary Love (as C.S. Lewis calls it), and I think it's in the neighborhood of sin. Like marrying somebody because of their money, or befriending the common nerd because it looks good on your campaign for highschool president.
To love somebody, to truly love them, must not have any motives beyond itself. Otherwise, it's not love at all, but selfishness, or something that I dont know the word for.

Maybe i'm just trying to be deep. Maybe in a way this is boosting my ego and pride. I hope not. It's just been something going through my head these past days and I thought i'd get it down into words.

I wrote a song about it too. Here's the lyrics.

http://myspace.com/somebodysomewhere

-Bodies

Everybody's wasting time
staring at their watches, watching time go by.
Here we're standing, side by side.
Holding hands, watching eachother die.

And nobody loves anybody anymore
And everybody loves themselves too much
But if somebody loved someone with all their heart,
then someone will love somebody else.

People changing, watch them go.
Faces aging as their bodies grow.
We run in circles, run the race.
Every step we take we're digging graves.

And nobody loves anybody anymore
And everybody loves themselves too much
But if somebody loved someone with all their heart,
then someone will love somebody else.

The world will shine so brightly
But we have our curtains closed
We're asleep inside our open eyes
and we forget that we're alone.

We surrender our hearts for helmets
in the times that try men's souls.
We see stars in the sky and forget our minds
and make computers to count them all.

Everybody's wasting time, staring at their watches,
watching time go by.