Valentine's Blues...

i find myself sad and a bit let down.
this valentines i feel lonely. more than usual. it's haunting me, the feeling that i'm missing something, or somebody. It's not a spiritual thing. It has nothing to do with my relationship with God. I just feel like there's something i'm missing, that i could have if i looked hard enough, but for some reason haven't tried.
I think it's romance. But it may not be. it could be something different. but i dont know what.
I wonder how long this'll last before i get over it.

I had band practice today. That might be another reason i feel let down...though i really dont know why it would make me feel that way. i was replaced. with a really really really amazing bass player that owns me cwazily. so i got moved to playing piano. For some reason i dont feel like it was just "being moved" but "being demoted". i feel like all of my worth in bass just wasn't enough so i was replaced and instead was moved to some other branch where hopefully i'll do better.
I dont think that's what they intended. I'm happy with whatever i get, i guess. Plus, i get to learn new things. But it just feels like a big let down.
Hmm...
Happy Valentines to all.
You have my deepest condulences if you're a victim of the times.